I’ve been gone for quite a while and I’m sorry about that. I truly want to be a better blogger. Recently, my fiancé and I went through a trying time after having a miscarriage after a miscarriage and I wanted to share my experience with you all.

First Miscarriage

Last May, we found out we were pregnant. At first we were so scared, but after having time to think about it… we became so excited. At the end of June we had our first ultrasound which showed us that we had a blighted ovum. We were devastated. In July, we had a D&C. We wanted to try again because going through that showed us we really wanted to have a baby. (You can read more about this experience on our blog Road To Parenthood)

Second Miscarriage

So we continued trying and on January 30 of this year, we found out we were pregnant again. We were beyond thrilled, yet cautious because of what happened last time. In February I had some spotting so we went to the ER. They did an ultrasound which showed a baby with a heartbeat! This was so different than last time because we never got to see a baby. The doctor said the spotting was just implantation bleeding.

We told our friends and family and everyone was so excited for us. On March 12, I had started bleeding so we went to the ER and they did an ultrasound which showed the baby stopped growing and there was no heartbeat (I should have been 9 weeks then but the baby measured around 7). The doctor said that a baby doesn’t go from having a heartbeat to no heartbeat and that the baby had stopped developing. On March 14, I had a D&C.

What’s Next?

We were so heartbroken because we were so excited for this baby. The first time we got pregnant was a surprise but this one was planned and very wanted. I’m so grateful to have such an amazing partner. He has been nothing but supportive and there to always take care of me. I still have my moments and even cried this morning but I know that we will get through this and hopefully have a baby someday. My doctor has referred me to a specialist. She said she typically doesn’t do this until after 3 consecutive miscarriages, but she wants a baby for us too.

I feel like miscarriage is considered a taboo subject and not enough people talk about it. 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage. I’m unfortunate that I’ve had to go through this twice in a row but I wanted to share my story so that hopefully other people will tell their story. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here!